dang where did the weekend go? sat hubby and son and i cleaned the garden out. finished harvesting the beans (how i will miss not picking fresh beans for dinner) and the tomatoes(omg i have a huge amount of green tomatos, any suggestions?) seriously i have probably about 50 pounds of tomatos to do something with. while its not as many as last year when i had a record amount of 85 pounds or somewhere around there, its still alot of tomatos
sunday for some reason i slept allll day seriously all day, i woke up about 5, realized i had not taken my meds the night before(which is why i woke up, from the pain) took them, ate some cereal so my body didn't get sick from the meds alone, then when back to bed. got up at 8 fed the cats and got shadow out of the garage and into his own little igloo, got the sunday paper, handed it to hubby, and procedeed to go right back to sleep, next thing i know its 10 am, do i get up, ummm nope, just roll over after telling dd goodbye when she left for work, next thing i know, its 2:30 in the afternoon. i am so not tired right now LOL
on saturday night there was a earthquake centered under mt rainier, was a 4. something 6 i think, while this is odd, the scientists say to not get to alarmed as it was not part of volcanic swarms(ummm this is EXACTLY the way mt st helens started!!!!) while i know i would be safe as i live far enough away and to the west enough and away from the puyallup valley, i should not have any adverse effects should the old man decide to pop his top. but let me tell you, if it did, there would be a whole lot of hurt going on, this area is so populated that should it explode like st helens did, many more people would die, especially when the lahar siren didn't work well last week when tested, actually it didn't work at all in fact.
on to another subject, you should see my house, my son goes totally crazy when it comes to decorating for the holidays. especially halloween and christmas, but especially halloween, its his favorite celebration. every day when i get up, he has added more and more decorations, his latest is singing skeletons, while cute, should they go off in the middle of the night he will be minus some old bones GRRRRR
finished my 2nd scarf for the scarf swap and will send the goodies off on tuesday, since there is no mail tomorrow what is up with that. lucky ducks lol
i am going to be listing on e-bay and maybe etsy.com to sell a ton of yarn,. if anyone is interested in seeing anything before i list it let me know and i will see what i can do to save you some e-bay fees lol well both of us lol
talked with some good friends this evening fran and
donna, and then the famous trish who designed this blog and made it the interesting place it is. without her i would be lost. so thank you trish i love it all.
not much else going on this week, sunday we went to mil's house,. i tell ya it about broke my heart to see her so bad, she seemed to be a totally different person, she didn't even remember i was married to her son and she didn't even know me, yet fil and her doc say its not alzheimers, granted they didn't bother to test so how the heck do they know? i guess they are just in denial. sad though, i love this woman as i did my own mother and its almost as if she is gone too. she called me tonight with fil's help to say she was going to bed. yes thats right, to say she was going to bed. then she asked about the cats. for some reason she seems to remember the older days but not recent. i am crying in my heart.
trying to decide what i am going to get my son for his b-day., hubby and i already said we are not buying each other anything and he didn't only because i could not find anything, but i do know i will get him something.
he complains ALLLLLL the time about retiring, but i am not sure i could stand having him home all day, let alone the finanical ruin it would be. what the sticking point is of course the medical, last time we checked the medical would be over 900.00 a month for him and i, thats almost half of our income before taxes. no way it isn;t happening, if he does most likely we will split up as i will not be able to survive without medical and if we sold the house and went our ways i would have some for a while to live on, after that then medicade would have to take over, is sad when you have been married as long as us that you start drifting apart. i always thought we would never part, but lately have been thinking about it alot, as i know he is too, why do people stay together when they are not happy. i honestly thought he loved me , but there are times now i question it,. and thats because i don't know him anymore, is amazing how when someones life changed due to something out of their control, how it changes people. i suppose i have changed i am sure i have, but am i such a bad person that no one wants to be around me? i never thought of myself as a shrew maybe i am :(
why does things happen to you and then its like your not the same as before, of course i am not the same, i can't do the same things i can't be what he wants me to be, is it my fault or his or anyones? i just don't know anymore. inside i am dying a little every day, i try and be cheerful, but inside i wonder why i am here.does ones happiness from the past keep you together? my parents divorced after 27 years of marriage, we have been married going on 28 now. and his parents have been married togetner since 1950. yet they are not happy, never have been as far as i could ever tell, fought all the time, just like we are doing now. i hate life sometimes, alright i am done with my whoa me pity party time to just let it go for now, tomorrow will not bring me anymore happiness, why should i worry about it anymore its so not worth it to do it, just makes me sad again :(
hope your day is going better than mine and that things look brighter for you, maybe i will crochet myself a little cacoon(sp sucks sorry) or is that right lol who knows or cares. not me. k night ya all hope that tomorrow is a better day, who knows maybe i will hit the lottery. i should have damn it, but i was to nice and let my friend go ahead of me and she won instead. oh well life is like that
a bowl of cheetios its not. tata for now my friends. god bless and keep you all and for those who need my prayers and you all know who you are, you got them sweeties, hope things are better for your family and friends. take care and until we greet each other tomorrow, peace out and god bless. and hug the one you love today. byeeeeeeeeeeeee signing off now till we meet again, happy trails to you
sunday for some reason i slept allll day seriously all day, i woke up about 5, realized i had not taken my meds the night before(which is why i woke up, from the pain) took them, ate some cereal so my body didn't get sick from the meds alone, then when back to bed. got up at 8 fed the cats and got shadow out of the garage and into his own little igloo, got the sunday paper, handed it to hubby, and procedeed to go right back to sleep, next thing i know its 10 am, do i get up, ummm nope, just roll over after telling dd goodbye when she left for work, next thing i know, its 2:30 in the afternoon. i am so not tired right now LOL
on saturday night there was a earthquake centered under mt rainier, was a 4. something 6 i think, while this is odd, the scientists say to not get to alarmed as it was not part of volcanic swarms(ummm this is EXACTLY the way mt st helens started!!!!) while i know i would be safe as i live far enough away and to the west enough and away from the puyallup valley, i should not have any adverse effects should the old man decide to pop his top. but let me tell you, if it did, there would be a whole lot of hurt going on, this area is so populated that should it explode like st helens did, many more people would die, especially when the lahar siren didn't work well last week when tested, actually it didn't work at all in fact.
on to another subject, you should see my house, my son goes totally crazy when it comes to decorating for the holidays. especially halloween and christmas, but especially halloween, its his favorite celebration. every day when i get up, he has added more and more decorations, his latest is singing skeletons, while cute, should they go off in the middle of the night he will be minus some old bones GRRRRR
finished my 2nd scarf for the scarf swap and will send the goodies off on tuesday, since there is no mail tomorrow what is up with that. lucky ducks lol
i am going to be listing on e-bay and maybe etsy.com to sell a ton of yarn,. if anyone is interested in seeing anything before i list it let me know and i will see what i can do to save you some e-bay fees lol well both of us lol
talked with some good friends this evening fran and
donna, and then the famous trish who designed this blog and made it the interesting place it is. without her i would be lost. so thank you trish i love it all.
not much else going on this week, sunday we went to mil's house,. i tell ya it about broke my heart to see her so bad, she seemed to be a totally different person, she didn't even remember i was married to her son and she didn't even know me, yet fil and her doc say its not alzheimers, granted they didn't bother to test so how the heck do they know? i guess they are just in denial. sad though, i love this woman as i did my own mother and its almost as if she is gone too. she called me tonight with fil's help to say she was going to bed. yes thats right, to say she was going to bed. then she asked about the cats. for some reason she seems to remember the older days but not recent. i am crying in my heart.
trying to decide what i am going to get my son for his b-day., hubby and i already said we are not buying each other anything and he didn't only because i could not find anything, but i do know i will get him something.
he complains ALLLLLL the time about retiring, but i am not sure i could stand having him home all day, let alone the finanical ruin it would be. what the sticking point is of course the medical, last time we checked the medical would be over 900.00 a month for him and i, thats almost half of our income before taxes. no way it isn;t happening, if he does most likely we will split up as i will not be able to survive without medical and if we sold the house and went our ways i would have some for a while to live on, after that then medicade would have to take over, is sad when you have been married as long as us that you start drifting apart. i always thought we would never part, but lately have been thinking about it alot, as i know he is too, why do people stay together when they are not happy. i honestly thought he loved me , but there are times now i question it,. and thats because i don't know him anymore, is amazing how when someones life changed due to something out of their control, how it changes people. i suppose i have changed i am sure i have, but am i such a bad person that no one wants to be around me? i never thought of myself as a shrew maybe i am :(
why does things happen to you and then its like your not the same as before, of course i am not the same, i can't do the same things i can't be what he wants me to be, is it my fault or his or anyones? i just don't know anymore. inside i am dying a little every day, i try and be cheerful, but inside i wonder why i am here.does ones happiness from the past keep you together? my parents divorced after 27 years of marriage, we have been married going on 28 now. and his parents have been married togetner since 1950. yet they are not happy, never have been as far as i could ever tell, fought all the time, just like we are doing now. i hate life sometimes, alright i am done with my whoa me pity party time to just let it go for now, tomorrow will not bring me anymore happiness, why should i worry about it anymore its so not worth it to do it, just makes me sad again :(
hope your day is going better than mine and that things look brighter for you, maybe i will crochet myself a little cacoon(sp sucks sorry) or is that right lol who knows or cares. not me. k night ya all hope that tomorrow is a better day, who knows maybe i will hit the lottery. i should have damn it, but i was to nice and let my friend go ahead of me and she won instead. oh well life is like that
a bowl of cheetios its not. tata for now my friends. god bless and keep you all and for those who need my prayers and you all know who you are, you got them sweeties, hope things are better for your family and friends. take care and until we greet each other tomorrow, peace out and god bless. and hug the one you love today. byeeeeeeeeeeeee signing off now till we meet again, happy trails to you
3 Comments:
I am sorry things seem so rough. Just remember, you will never be given anything to handle that you cannot handle.
Sometimes, as people grow, they grow apart. It isn't a bad reflection on either person, it's just how things go sometimes.
There is nothing wrong in realizing that you may not be the same people you both were when you fell in love.
*hugs*
Do what you have to do and it will work out.
We haven't had earthquakes around here for a long time. I was wondering when that was going to start up again. Perhaps the quakes up there will mean quakes down here soon.
So often when people hit a certain stage in life, they realize how much has changed over the years. It's no ones fault, just the way things are. Hope you can find some peace of mind.
thanks my friends. i really am at a lost as to what to do, he says he loves me, yet we fight alllll the time. so much has changed since i got hurt. i think he feels guilty that it wasn't him, to which i said thank god it wasn;t, where would we be no job no money. i wish he could retire as i think thats a large part of our stress, plus his mom. she is fading fast. life is defiently not a bowl of cherries, need to eat more chocolate LOL hugs to you both
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